Deep down

  What everyone sees,
  It's all completely fake,
  They see me smiling,
  And they think I'm happy,
  They hear me laugh,
  And they think I'm completely fine,
  Haven't they heard the news,
  Don't they know you're back,
  Can they not remember the shit you put me through,
  Have they forgotten all the things you did to me,
  Everything you did that made me wish I was dead,
  Do they not see the scars that you left me with,                     
  Emotonal scars,
  Physical scars,
  They're always there,
  They never fade away,
  I thought you cared,
  Obviously I was wrong,
  I guess I always knew,
  Deep down,
  What type of person you really are,
  I just didn't want to admit,
  You could be so evil,
  Especially to me. 

Dead inside

 I feel dead inside,
 Do you not understand,
 I feel completely dead inside,
 My hearts broken,
 I can't find words to express how annoying your voice is,
 I've given up,
 I understand there's no way to fight you,
 You think I've gone insane as I sit there and tell you,
 I feel dead inside,
 You try to diagnose me but you can't,
 The only answer you can come up with is,
 That I really am dead inside,
 Well no shit Sherlock,
 Did it really take you this long to work it out,
 I've been to hell and now I'm back,
 Completely hollowed out,
 I feel dead inside,
 And there's no one left to help,
 You say you'll rescue me from all the shit I've been through,
 But if the police can't save me how do you expect to,
 You're a crappy, boring,drooling counsellor,
 And I don't need you, 

 Because I already feel dead inside!!

For Dandy

Drops of dew fall from the petals of flowers in your garden,
They're as clear as diamonds,
Just like the tears in my eyes
I'm missing you,
But I know you're never coming back to me.

You caused me so much heartache,
You caused my heart to twist and turn and break,
I don't want you back any more,
But I miss you so much,
I miss seeing your face everyday,
But it's OK because I'm getting stronger.

Sometime I wonder if you ever miss me,
Then I remember that,
You're OK,
You have your honeybees hovering around you,
Because you're a dandelion swaying in the breeze.

The wind may change but you'll always be the same,
As long as you have your honeybees hovering around you,
Waiting for you to notice them,
Show them your smile,
The one I used to be so naive to believe it was just for me,
Now I know the truth about you,
You and your honeybees.

Is that what you wanted me to be?
Was I just meant to be like one of them?
Was I supposed to be another of your honeybees?
Another notch in your belt?
Another girl hovering around you?
Another member in your harem?

Well I'm a bee that's not attracted to dandelions,
I'm a girl who's not attracted to you and your lying blue eyes,
If I ever get the chance I will make those stupid honeybees fly way,
Then you'll be a dandelion swaying in the breeze with nowhere to go,
And no honeybees to love you.

I wonder if,
Years in the future,
You'll realise that I was the one,
And you'll hate yourself for treating me the way you did,
By then I'll be gone,
Settled down with my one,
And you'll always be that dandelion swaying in the breeze,
Nowhere to go,

No honeybees.

When I

 When I sleep I dream,
 And when I dream I dream of you,
 Always you,
 Nothing but you,

 When it's quiet I think,
 And when I think my thoughts are full of you,
 Your eyes,
 Your hair,
 And your lips,
 When I open my eyes I can finally see,
 And what I see is you,
 As hand in hand we run through feilds full or daisies,
 And as I lie in your arms,
 I know I luv you,
 And always will.