Begun to forget

  I dream that I'm lay in a park,
  Stretched out on the grass,
  It seems so real,
  I can feel the wet ground beneath me,
  And I can smell the daisies and buttercups,
  I can feel your hand in mine,
  I dream of you all the time,
  The setting changes,
  But you're always the same,
  You're smiling as if I mean everything,
  You're holding me close and kissing my head,
  You're being so kind and loving,
  I'm not seeing the real you at all,
  I've begun to forget what it was like in the last few days,
  How you lied to me,
  And cheated on me,
  I've begun to forget,
  How you hit me,
  And beat me,
  And made me believe it was all my fault,
  But I have to force myself to remember that,
  Because I can't handle it again.