choices

 It's a dark night,
 I'm all alone,
 Sat by the sea,
 Staring at nothing,
 Thinking about nothing,
 Then through the darkness you come to me,
 It really is you,
 You're eyes look golden in the lamplight,
 The fine hairs on your muscular arms are golden too in the lamplight,
 And all I can think about,
 Is how great those arms would feel around me,
 I can't help but stare at you're lips,
 And wonder how it would feel if you kissed me,
 But you're not going to,
 You're only here to ruin my life,
 Just like I  ruined your life four years ago.
 But how can you know about that?
 Nobody knows,
 Nobody ever knew,
 It's like my body goes onto autopilot,
 And within seconds I'm stood right in front of you,
 My head tilted back so I can look at your face,
 Look into your eyes,
 They really do look golden.
 Is that even possible?
 I'm not sure,
 I don't care,
 Because you're smiling,
 Smiling down at me,
 That smile that makes my knees go weak,
 And I'm falling,
 But you save me,
 Wrapping your arms around me,
 Pulling my back to my feet,
 But not letting go of me,
 Then you're kissing me,
 The most perfect kiss I've ever had,
 A kiss I never want to end,
 I want it to go on forever,
 But after a while you pull away,
 And you ask me to choose,
 It's you or them.
 Haven't I been here before?
 Haven't I made this choice before?
 Because I'm getting that feeling of deja vu,
 Last time I chose them.
 But did I make the best choice,
 Or just the easiest?
 This time would I make the same choice?
 I don't think I could,
 I don't want to walk away from you,
 I guess that's my decision made,
 I choose you,
 It will always be you.