If only

Sometimes I find myself wishing I was someone else
I find myself wishing I didn't remember all the things I've been through in my life
If only I could be more normal
If only I could get rid of all my memories
If only I wasn't me
If only I was dead
It could be so simple
It could all be over
Would you miss me if I was gone?
Would you mourn?
Would you cry?
If I did not remember any of the things that have happened to me
Would we be together now?
If I was someone else
Would you even look my way?
If only I were normal
If only you cared
If only I didn't remember
If only you stopped reminding me
If only I was someone else
If only you were there
If only I was dead
It would all stop then
The memories
The game we play
The pain we cause each other
By pretending we don't care.
Would you cry?
Would you mourn?
Would you realize you can't be without me?
I guess not
Most probably you would move straight on
To another girl who will play you game
If you come to the funeral
She'll be by your side
You'll refuse to cry
You'll keep playing the game even then and there
You'll prove to everyone that you definitely cared less.