A joyless life

Living a joyless life
Pretending every thing's fine
Never shedding a tear
I'm not allowed anymore
The time to mourn has passed
Trying to be perfect but failing
Watching as life passes by
Hating life because it's empty
Wanting something else
Wanting to be someone else
Never getting that wish
Trapped in the same life
Same routine
Without a heart
Without joy
Completely empty
Day after day
Week after week
A never ending nightmare
But this is real
This is my life
There is no waking up
It's not a dream
The boredom and emptiness is real
Tomorrow will be just like today
Today is just like yesterday
It'll go on that way forever
Untill the day everything ends
The last day of this nightmare existance