I hate

 I hate that I didn't cry,
 I hate that I had to say goodbye,
 I hate your mum for not being there,
 I hate the fact that you're gone,
 I hate that you were so young,
 I hate the fact that I couldn't kiss you goodbye,
 Because that's what I wanted to do.

 I hate the memory of the coldness in your eyes,
 I hate those doctors and their lies,
 I hate those people and their sighs,
 As I say to them that I loved you,
 They think I'm cute,
 That it will pass,
 They think we weren't really IN love.

 I hate that I can't remember your laugh,
 I hate that I can remember your screams of pain instead,
 I hate that I can remember your tears,
 Better than I can remember your smile,
 I hate that your mum still needs someone to rely on,
 And now that someone has to be me,
 Because you're gone.

 I hate that I'm on my own now,
 I hate that I can't handle it,
 I hate the fact that because of you the darkness is back,
 I hate that because of you I feel like I'm falling, 
 But I don't hate you,
 I could never hate you,
 I love you!